As the summer season begins to draw to a close actors will
finish up with their contracts. No matter how many contracts you’ve done, in
stock, in the regions or on Broadway, the shows all eventually close (except
Starlight in Germany. That thing’s been running for almost 30 years). Then an Actor’s thoughts turn to “What’s next?” After my first summer stock gig away from home I stared head on into the void of this question.
This was a new experience for me. I never had to decide what
to do before. In the past I did what my parents told me to do. When I went away
to school I did what my teachers told me to do. There was no choice.
Now I had options to weigh. Take another contract
with the company, which meant working through the fall up until Christmas or do
a show with the musical director I had just worked with, back in my hometown.
Due to a lifelong fear of being stuck in suburbia, I chose to take another
contract. I would be making $85 a week, instead of doing a
Christmas show at home making $220 a week.
After that $85 a week contract ended, “What’s next” reared
its ugly head again. At this point the question was at least partially answered. I
was going home for Christmas. I was always home for the holidays. One of
the hold overs from growing up under the reign of Emperor and Empress Dad and
Mom. I didn’t mind though. I loved being home for the holidays. No place is
more magical than my hometown during Christmas. However this holiday season there was a different kind
of magic in the air. No sugar plums danced in my head. The only thing
in my head was the thought of moving to New York City.
Three of my friends from University, Fred, Hazel and Lester
had all moved to the city to go to grad school. Fred went to Columbia while
Hazel and Lester went to NYU. I too had toyed with going to grad school, but decided
I’d had enough of schooling. I wanted to move on with my life. Still I was
jealous of those three for taking a chance and moving.
While I was home during this particular holiday season I was
in contact with another alumnus who graduated with me, Contadina. She was
working a regular job in the area. After much conversation we decided we would
move to New York City together. We had a plan to conquer the unknown hand in
hand, much like we did when we went to the NETC’s together and got our first
away from home theatre jobs. The only thing we didn’t have was a definitive moving date. And that scared
me.
As a child I knew I had to get out of suburbia. I hated it.
It was boring, and everyone knew my family and our business. There was no
anonymity, no escaping the drudgery of life there. Besides that my parents’
number two rule, number one being “you live in my house therefore you live by
my rules”, was if you lived at home you had to be in school or have a job. Grad
school was out. Having a job meant putting down roots. Putting down roots meant
staying in suburbia. Not an option.
So I got nervous. And antsy. And impetuous. After New Year’s Day I announced to the world
that I was moving to New York...in two weeks. I called Contadina and told her
of the plan. She said she didn’t want to go so soon. She needed to make more money for the move first.
So I left her in suburbia.
So I left her in suburbia.
I had been to New York before, but on January 15 I came
to the City with the intention of living here. I had three suitcases, two
hundred dollars and just me.
Plane ticket $300
Baggage fee $50
I had contacted Fred, who was living in the dorms at Columbia.
He didn’t have a roommate at the time. The other students in the quad had
people stay with them, so he thought he could as well. He also thought it would
be a great help if I had a place to stay for a while until I got acclimated to
the City.
I arrived on a Friday. I quickly found I hadn’t fully
thought the move through. I had a temporary place to live but I needed work to support
myself. Two hundred dollars wasn’t going to stretch very far. Another friend of
mine whom I had just performed with was already living and working in the city.
He gave me the name of his temp agency.
I had some office skills so I thought office temp work would be a great
fit. On Monday I went in for an interview and placement testing.
I started doing temp work right away. There were times
however when I didn’t feel like getting out of bed. So I didn’t go into work.
That’s one of the perks of being a temp. You can work or not work as you
choose. However there was one time where I had no choice. I had enough money
for one subway ride, after I had
taken the quarters out of my loafers. So it was either go to work, make money
and then walk home or go get the check, cash it and buy some groceries to eat.
I picked up the check.
Monthly NYC metro card $116
Food $20 per day (not including eating out or
ordering in)
I also went to as many auditions as possible. Not an easy
feat when booked for weeks at a time as a receptionist at Morgan Stanley, Price
Waterhouse, Skandia America and the like. But I did book performing gigs. The “loafer
quarter incident” came right before a two year stretch of constant performing
work. That’s why I had come to New York to live and perform...and to use my
new headshots.
Headshots have different looks and requirements depending on
where you’re home of operations are based. No matter how
great the photographer was back home, those pictures aren’t going to be on par
with the ones from New York or any other major theatrical city.
Before my first stock job away from home ended, I was able
to have my pictures taken by a cast member. I skipped having to search for someone. He was from New York City and a
budding photographer. He knew that headshot world. My only task was picking two pictures and having them retouched.
Then have the pictures set with my name and a border of some sort. Only then
could I take them to be reproduced in mass quantities to be used at auditions.
Headshots $1000
My rent free time at Fred’s had come to an end. The
University had gotten wind of all the unauthorized people staying in the dorm
and pulled the plug on it. So I moved to a rent free stint at another friend’s
place in Brooklyn.
After graduating with me, Jean had moved to the city for
work. She had an entry level job at MTV. She was also auditioning and doing cabarets
and shows. Staying with her only lasted a week or so. The guy who took my
headshots had booked a show out of town and needed a sublet. I was in need of a
place so it was a match made in heaven.
I packed up my things. With the help of Fred, Lester and Jean
I moved from Brooklyn to Washington Heights...on the subway. It was an
adventure. We still talk about it to this day. Unfortunately Hazel wasn’t
around for this monumental move. Before entering her second semester at NYU,
she decided City life and the life of an actor wasn’t for her. She quit school
and moved back upstate.
Now on top of the monthly
Cell phone $120
came the monthly expenses of:
Electricity $100
Television $60- $200 depending on the provider and the
package
Internet $30
I was subletting a furnished place. Everything was there that I needed. I didn’t even have to
purchase sheets. Otherwise I would have had
additional expenses. My friend Helga who moved to the City from Albuquerque was
also living in a sublet. Hers wasn’t furnished. She was living out of free milk
crates from the grocery store and a blow up mattress.
Furniture - $?
It’s a necessity for any performing artist to be completely
connected to the web with a fast reliable system. These days everyone who’s
been through school has some sort of computing/printing system. The system
should be capable of video and audio recording, Skyping, printing good quality
prints on a variety of paper and of course be wireless.
Laptop/Computer $500- $2400
Printer $100
Thanks to friends I had a place to sleep and a place to work. I had the materials for auditions. So as things kept rolling along I started to take class.
The Performing Arts do not exist in a vacuum. It’s a vast
community of artists and teachers and networking. Moreover techniques in dance,
voice and acting get rusty when not applied and exercised daily. An actor has
to take some sort of class. Besides keeping up on the aspect of talent
that’s the money maker, to be more marketable an actor has to expand and build
on peripheral talents as well.
Monthly Voice lessons $400
Monthly Dance classes $400
Acting/Improv lessons $400
I was honing my skills, meeting people and making friends.
We would go to auditions together. We would help one another out with leads on
jobs. We would circulate information about apartment sublets and share which classes were good and which to avoid. My friend Arthur told me about an audition once. I ended up booking the gig. It was there
I met Manuel who shared an apartment with another dancer.
Manuel lived on 187th street. It was a one
bedroom apartment. The other dancer
spent most of his time on tour so Manuel wanted someone to split the rent with
him. I was finishing up two years of constant theatre work. I would bounce into
town for a small stint and then it was back out again. I had no base of
operations save my three suitcases. I was going to be needing a place to call
home. So I moved in with the two of them.
Manuel was subsequently assisting a choreographer on a theme
park show which I auditioned for it and then got cast. All the people in the cast
were wonderful and we became fast friends. We had so much fun that hot and wild summer. It was there that I
met and became friends with Amir.
Amir was of German and Egyptian descent and he was
beautiful. When he walked into any room, everyone stared at him, guys and girls
alike. He had chestnut colored hair, olive complexed skin and the most amazing
crystal green eyes. To top all of that off he came from money. A lot of it. His
father would write a twenty thousand dollar plus check every semester for his university tuition.
Amir was graduating with a degree in dance. He was
moderately talented. That’s to say he had talent but he was no more talented
than anyone else. His dancing was fine. His singing was fine and his acting was
fine. Like a good majority of people, he dreamed about moving to New York and
being on Broadway. So he made a decision
that after he graduated he was moving.
Amir and I got along amazingly well. We had become such good
friends that we decided to find an apartment to share when he moved to New
York.
Very small Studio apartment $1300 per month
Broker’s fee $2500
Move in cost (first month’s rent and security deposit) $2600
However we were young performers with little to no credit
history and an erratic job history. To rent an apartment we needed a guarantor
for the lease. The guarantor is someone who is legally responsible for paying
the rent for the length of the rental agreement if the signed lease holders are not be able to do so. That person has to make one hundred times the
monthly rent of the apartment, have outstanding credit and limited financial
liabilities. According to some brokers the guarantor also has to live in the tristate
area, which consists of New York, New Jersey and Connecticut.
When I left home I vowed not to ask my parents for financial
help. I didn’t want to put that kind of pressure on them. My two younger
siblings would be looking towards college soon. I didn’t think my parents could
financially handle that and me and their home and their cars and their lives.
Finances weren’t something we discussed in my family. We had
everything we needed. And within reason we had everything we wanted. When we
could afford some extravagance we had it. When we couldn’t we didn’t. The ways
and means of middle class suburbia are that simple.
So in truth I had no idea if they could’ve financially helped
me even if I had asked.
Recently on Facebook I saw a post from a former colleague of
mine about this very thing:
"There is a drunk girl at a bar yelling that all people on
Broadway have their rent paid by their parents. And that everyone that goes to
auditions has their rent paid by their parents. #Delusional"
Amir’s dad ended up being the guarantor for the apartment. That didn’t make a difference for me though. Between the time Amir and I had
worked together and his move to New York, Amir and Manuel had worked together.
How it come about I don’t know, but they’d decided to find an apartment
together. The other dancer living with Manuel and me was gone. This left me out in the cold, especially when I
discovered Manuel had been forging a name on the lease.
But that’s a different story.
Amir moved to the city. He and Manuel got an apartment in
midtown Manhattan. Amir proceeded to audition, take class and network. He didn’t
have a day job. He lived off the dividends from the stocks his Grandfather had
given him for graduation. Within two years he had a production contract on
Broadway. A year later he got disillusioned and not only left show business but left the city.
Jean had worked up to middle management at MTV. She was
still working on performing and actually booked a paying gig. Then the woman she
was subletting from kicked her out. Jean didn’t like the instability of it all.
She moved back upstate.
Contadina finally saved up enough money and moved to New
York. Once here she didn’t have to work a day job to support herself. She
proceeded to audition and take lessons. Before she went through the entirety of
her savings she booked a performing gig. And another. And another. Six Broadway
shows and countless regional and stock gigs later, Contadina’s still working.
That recent Facebook post:
"There is a drunk girl at a bar yelling that all people on
Broadway have their rent paid by their parents. And that everyone that goes to
auditions has their rent paid by their parents. #Delusional"
Continued on:
"...I guess she was in the business at some point but left
because it was so expensive to take classes and audition...she yelled down the
bar that she didn’t care if everyone here was a Broadway star “I know their
parents pay their rent”...I’m sorry she didn’t have any success but people who
did aren’t spoiled. They are probably more talented, confident, and driven."
As I look back on what I did all those years ago, moving to
New York City with just two hundred dollars, three suitcases and refusing to
ask for my parents help, I’m astonished that I’m still here. Out of my
graduating class there are three who are still pursuing performing: myself,
Contadina and Lester. Talent, confidence and drive only play a small part.
Most actors leave the business because of the cost of living associated with Life in the Arts:
One-time costs:
Plane ticket $300
Baggage fee $50
Broker’s fee for apartment $2500
Move in cost $2600
Furniture $?
Monthly costs:
Studio apartment $1300
Metro card $116
Food $560
Cell phone $120
Electricity $100
Television $60- $200
Internet $30
Voice lessons $400
Dance classes $400
Acting/Improv lessons $400
Intermittent costs:
Headshots $1000
Laptop/Computer $500- $2400
Printer $100
Add it up. Multiply the monthly costs by twelve. Factor into
the equation that only two percent of Equity members are working as performers
at any given time. Then subtract the median income of those performers which is
roughly $7,500...per year.
I’ve been in the city for some time now. Though the initial
two hundred dollars and three suitcases are long gone I have survived and made a life for myself.
My friend Helga, who lived out of milk crates, and I ended
up renting and furnishing an apartment together. She’s since gotten married and
moved back to Albuquerque. Now it’s just my name on the lease. And all the
furniture in this three bedroom apartment is mine.
It’s time to have new headshots taken. I’m making an appointment
with a professional New York photographer. I’m planning it for the end of
August or the beginning of September.
I cater and teach. I’m back to choosing between working,
auditioning or going to class. I would rather be financially stable. But honestly no job these days provides true stability.
When both of my parents died, my inheritance enabled me to
live for a few years without a day job. During that time I auditioned, took
classes and lessons. This helped me book high paying high profile gigs.
I also booked high profile gigs with theatre celebrities
while working 60-70 hours a week at a day job.
There’s no rhyme or reason. Having help from your friends,
from your family and from your colleagues isn’t a crime. Doing it on your own
is not a necessity. Planning and saving is just as good as winging it. Success
or failure doesn’t depend on how you do it, just that you do it.
If you find yourself asking “What’s next?” be prepared. What’s next could be a move to
Chicago, LA, Toronto, Vancouver or New York. Understand that when you attack
the “What’s next” question it should be unique to your life, your needs and your
level of comfort. Do not try to follow someone else's trajectory. It’s imperative to know what you personally need to thrive.
Maybe it’s money like Contadina, or familial support like Amir or massive help
from friends and colleagues like me.
Any way you do it, surviving in the city of your choice is
tough. There’s a lot of hustle, a lot of work and a lot of sacrifice. In truth
no matter what you do or how you plan, where you come from or where you’re
going, at some point in your life and career you’ll be just like me asking yourself "What's next?".
I now know the end game. Whether I’m performing in a big budget musical or schlepping
to a survival job, "What's next" is always the same...
“...I work all night, I work all day to pay the bills I have
to pay”.
